Then, because I was hungry, I opened a can of white beans, added a little pepper and have been eating them with a spoon. Room temperature. Dr. Oz is a big believer in beans to lose your gut...so...
I also sliced and squeezed the juice of a large lemon into 24 oz of iced water. I need to clean out my body.
This past week, I have turned to food almost daily. I have gorged myself. Not at home, but secretly. I go grocery shopping and then get a little cash back and use it for junk food. Drive thrus, pastries, etc...secretly.
This past year has been rough on the marriage. We're slowly but surely working through a bunch of crap, but every once in a while, I lose it and turn to food. I eat til it hurts sometimes. I'll be doing real well, eating lean meats, veggies, fruit, lots of salad and water...and then BOOM. Life happens and I fall hard.
Me in 1993 - age 19 - 150 lbs.
So, today and today alone, I choose to eat veggies, drink lemon water and loose leaf tea and take care of myself. Not to be thinner, but to know that I'm doing the right thing as a mom and wife. I want to be sexy, and while I can be heavy and sexy, I still feel fat inside. It's a tremendous burden and I want it gone. I'll mess up again and feel rotten again, but today, I choose health.